“HATRED KILLS FAIRIS” – Report on the participation of Radical Faeries at the Rainbow Parade Vienna 2014!

The parade was just incredible splendidly for us and left a quiet luster to our golden faces. Never ever have so many people taken photos from us. The joy beamed from every face who discovered us and applauded. “We radiated grace and glorious movement of our bodies like no other group in the parade,” told us a young woman who followed us for some time. The joy of our presence was felt everywhere! The Faeries represent the diversity of our community: The Rurtaler were alternately carrying the parade shield. They are magnificent images of men with long hair and beautiful hairy bodies, a real eye catcher and figurehead for our group. They smiled and radiated out in front and were reliable vanguard against the hard core of the Austrian Faeries: the triumvirate of Black Panther; today as a perfect drag queen who called herself on parade “Bad Davis” so mean and striking was der eyeliner, but her smile was just amazing and turned us on all the way up the Ring Street in the opposite direction. Then, Red Rose, once again “Reddily” our “cock of the walk” as aptly the newspaper “Österreich” subtitled, in a dress that envied all viewers, so totally authentic was the rose, as if she was already born in this dress. Her cordial attitude was catching to all around. People scrambled to get a picture of us. And as a third musketeer: Mata Hari, this time “Golden I” – in the same outfit as on the Life Ball. The golden rays shooting out of her head assembly, met in all eyes round. Applause everywhere. Finally, Golden I was only able to a serene goodness, to incarnate the eternal glory of the sun that gives us her eternal life energy. Bravely she stalked elegantly in the highest heels off the ring, no matter how her toes would look like. We did it for the enthusiastic people to whom tolerance and respect for others is a concern. Where it is more important to spread positive energy instead of negative and still be themselves! We got the number right before the Noes, which gave us extra attention, as many believed, this huge pink rainbow of balloons behind us was one of us. But still we heard that the parade spectators very well could identify us as the Radical Faeries and they also applauded us sporadically for that. We have not arrived in the mainstream, but in the hearts of men, we have a clearly noticed and many have recognized us from the exhibition “Radical Faeries at the Viennese City Hall!” Many Faeries were not marching right behind our sign, but scattered in the parade, because we are everywhere. Some did not go along, because they do not bear the crowds and the noise. Also, that’s OK. We were pleased that Doro and El have painted their body and have always looked by and visited us. We appreciated many Faerie friends who suddenly appeared and were greeting us. We also gave interviews to ORF and W24 that we also saw the same evening on television.
And there was one thing that has surprised all of us: The Radical Faeries won the 2nd place in the evaluation of the contributions as marching troupe by a jury with regard to the idea, execution and message! behind HAPPY. This has really pleased! Because that showed us that the message has arrived! Great appreciation! WELL DONE!
parade5-300x192In contrast to Vienna Pride the Rainbow Parade is still not a purely commercial event where still contents, spirit, tolerance and messages are really transported and a breach of rules is not taken too seriously. This had to suffer our beloved Hermes, who as a living altar wanted to sit on a wheelchair somewhere in a small tent, and he was miserably disposed of by the organizers of the Vienna Pride because he dared for 5 minutes his body to free himself completely, together with a piece of 61 years old naked skin, which has served once as a genital – before this body would have been decorated. In contrast, this event was promoted towards the Ring Street with huge posters of a new political party, where the only key element was a male ass presented with the note: “Free yourself”. That is the hypocrisy and apparent “tolerance” in this country. Nudity is tolerated in the 21st century only where it is meant to entice people on glossy. However, if an older person once wants to do free himself for 10 minutes, someone who has marked 25 years the spiritual gay life of the city as a positive open and radical against babbittry like no other and for so many – as a bearer of hope against the general personal oppression, It is immediately switched off every spirit and compassion of those who are afraid of sponsors or the image of the event and the emergency or police is called.
Nudity is still the biggest taboo of humanity, to show people the way you really is. We still pursue those who want to break this taboo. We do not want to hear their message. We despise them, because they represent something that we ourselves do not want to allow us to be as we really are! We cannot permanently suppress our true inner nature – without losing our love.
What probably most impressed me during the parade was a young one from the Philippines, who carried a sign that read: “HATRED KILLS FAIRIS”. There is nothing to add! (Mata Hari)

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RADICAL FAERIES in the Viennese City Hall!


RADICAL FAERIES in the Viennese City Hall!

EXTENDED TILL Friday, 27.6.2014!

8.00 – 20.00 Uhr, Arkadenhofgalerie:

Foto EXHIBITION „Feen im Fummel. Radical Faeries im Wiener Rathaus“

WASt, Verein Aisthesis und selfsightseeing company präsentieren mit dieser Ausstellung eine Dokumentation und kunstbasierte Forschung über die „Radical Faeries Austria“, eine alternative queere Bewegung, die aus der Subkultur San Franciscos kommt und für Schwule, Lesben und Trans* eine Subszene abseits herkömmlicher Normierungen schafft.

Veranstalter: WASt-Wiener Antidiskriminierungsstelle für gleichgeschlechtliche und transgender Lebensweisen in Kooperation mit dem Verein Aisthesis und der selfsightseeeing company

Projektleitung: Mag. Wolfgang Wilhelm (WASt), Mag. Georg Vogt (Aisthesis), Mag. Bastian Petz (selfsightseeing company)











Once WE ARE transformed
Once WE ARE reborn
You know WE will rise like FAERIES
But you’re OUR flame!


YES we believe in a Future of Peace and Freedom,

Diversity, Tolerance and Respect

and without Discriminations of any kind! We are a Community! We are Unity!


So many Radical Faeries worldwide and in Austria THANK YOU Conchita

for speading so much positive energy and good spirit into the world!


Grateful: Mata Hari and Red Rose with Conchtia Wurst at the Lifeball 2012 in Vienna


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Austrian Faerie Calender – past events 2014

15.-22 June 2014: SUMMER COMMUNITY WEEK at Sanctuary Weinviertel


21./ 22. Juni 2014:  Summer SOLSTICE at Sanctuary



Participation at Vienna PRIDE 11.-15. June 2014 + Parade 14. June 2014


Radical Faeries im Wiener Rathaus!

5.6. – 27.6.2014,

Fotoexhibition and Vernissage „Feen im Fummel. Radical Faeries im Wiener Rathaus“


11.-21 April 2014: SPRING COMMUNITY WEEK

at the Sanctuary (Faerie Home Weinviertel)


Spring is so beautiful at our Faerie Home Sanctuary Weinviertel!
For all Faeries and friends who liked to

– work on the Land (gardening, cutting and gathering wood),

– create real Faerieland

in connection with Mother Nature (creating altars and sacred spaces)

– create room for more faeries and like to

– explore the lovely landscape and richness in animals and

– laugh and sing at night around the fire.


30. April – 4. Mai 2014:  WALPURGISNACHT / BELTANE


We were celebrating the beginning of the summer with

lighting bonfires, decorating homes with May flowers, making ‘May
Bushes’, creating a maypole and dancing around our tree!


20-21 February 2014 :   EXHIBITION 




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The KISSING AWAKE the Sanctuary Report (by Mata Hari)

The Kissing AWAKE of our new Faerie Home in Austria started already one day before the event when Red Rose and I picked up Mother Goose and Bindu happily from the stations in Vienna and when I suddenly ran into Lone Wolf not far from my home at night, although I did not know that Lone Wolf was already in town. This is MAGIC! The faeries MEET wherever they are – at the right moment, the right place, the right persons!

On 15th August about six faeries landed safely at the new sanctuary by train from Vienna – being picked up by a new faerie Udo, who came with Fauny arriving the day before from Amsterdam. In the afternoon I had a long, serious and intensive talk with Fauny about his views and the views of “Folleterre” about the new sanctuary / faerie homes in Austria and about Folleterre in general. Are we all still very close to the roots of the faerie-movement in Europe? Should we open up to new ideas? Is the whole thing getting too commercial? Many questions in our heads! Fauny was the faerie who also led the inauguration in Folleterre 8 years ago, so he knew definitely how it goes! We talked about the program of the ceremony and we had a delicious meal cooked by a lot of faeries. But before the ritual started around the fire, there came a big surprise. The two new faeries from Austria Tom and Michael arrived and some faeries in beautiful masks. It turned out that one of them was Bambi from Berlin and two American Faeries from California who already knew Harry Hay personally and one of them told us that Hay was the reason to encourage him to his Coming Out as a Gay person. And as mysteriously as they appeared, so quickly they disappeared at the end of the day – but before we started the unique Kissing AWAKE Ritual with a little heart circle around the fire. I had the idea to name it “Kissing Awake”, when I woke up one morning and was considering what can we do with a sleeping beauty? Maybe Inauguration sounds too sacred, but kissing sounds human and sexy at the same time. Kissing is good for human souls, for trees and animals. And kissing was always a taboo for me when I was young. So I also wanted to break a taboo in me and among the faeries. It is not necessary everything always only ever be named “holy” in a sanctuary. It should also be a blessed, beloved and loving place. And you can show best love externally if you kiss somebody! Don’t you? I really would strongly hope that everybody involved deeply incorporates this spirit! It is a real chance to get a new life!

When it was dark the procession started and we walked one after another to the 4 corners of the sanctuary with burning candles in our hands. A candlelight procession to get to know all the secrets of the land. But before we asked for protection for the land and that it would allow us to be safe and gentle and spiritual to it and we promised to be good to the land and take care for it! Then in every corner we asked for the spirits of the 4 hemispheres. In the second corner we asked for the spirits of the animals for blessing which was my task to do so, because I specially love the animals in this sanctuary! In the third corner we were finding our way at the land through the darkness by waiting at our own imaginary altar and then going back creating a spiral with our candles as a symbol for creation – the founding of a new sanctuary.

At the forth corner finally we did the real kissing awake ritual where we gathered around a beautifully red and orange decorated bench in the wood and we all started to kiss another faeries one after another at the bench. The kissing ceremony was just amazing and very touching for us all. We all were very grateful to have this wonderful moment in our lives. Yes and from now on also the Sanctuary was kisses and sacred ….

And then the performances started on our stone stage. Red Rose and I performed the modern but wild interpretation of Stravinsky’s “Le Sacre de Printemps” which I thought was perfectly representing the idea of this special event. This 20 minutes fight between the tribes of the world which was led with soil, plants and honey, the sacrifice of the virgin ended up with the crowning of the fire in nakedness. Till midnight our two Faeries from California gave us a wonderful time playing beautiful songs at the guitar and we all hoped that this romantic and warm summer night would never end.

In the morning we had a great Shaking workshop with Black Panther. We started building a shrine for the sanctuary and we had our first real “kissed awake” heart circle in beautiful sun under shady woods. On the occasion of the Kissing ceremony the circle started by presenting a nice little gift from Folleterre to the Austrian Faeries. The gift touched us a lot and with tears in our eyes we all spoke from the heart.

I must admit that I did not want to leave this Sanctuary at this moment. Everything was so calm and gentle. I could not imagine that tomorrow there should start the first full 10 days Gathering in Austria in the Alps near Salzburg – which mainly was organized by me. But I had to face the reality – the faerie reality! And we started the faerie track west to the gathering – not knowing what was expecting me – but with my only real intention – to have an open heart for all and to feel and bring and spread GOOD ENERGY! – To LET IT FLOW in Austria!

…And as all the reactions worldwide show us – yes! – Everybody appreciated that!

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This was 2nd EQUINOX in Vienna: Radical Faerie Party + Show @ ARENA Bar Wien 5


Dearest Faeries and Friends, YOU were GREAT!


for coming to our (Autumn) EQUINOX Party+ Show in the Arena Bar!






First REACTIONS to this UNIQUE Event 2013:


“The Equinox Party in a very vintage Viennese Variety Theater was a veritable smorgisbord of astounding theatrical and Musical Talent. It was strange standing in a chant circle in front of non-faeries or Friends-of-faeries. The Lady caught up with Faeries not seen since the Gathering; but everyone in a flurry of rehearsing and costume changes. The Lady can say that ‘the very Special Guest from London if anything was ‘Special Needs’…She’s still drying out on the Sofa!

Mata Hari was an inexhaustible wealth of Talent; the Show went on for six hours…

Faerie Magic and Sacred Play was always present. A wonderful time!” The Lady xxx


“Yahooo…it was GRRRREAT !!!!
A Perfect EquinoX PartY with Just the Right Mix of Everything
….Infinite Love and Gratitude …….” (Beata Pozitiva)


See also @ facebook:

Arena Bar Variete Theater Cafè

Margaretenstraße 117, 1050 Wien, Austria
EQUINOX @ facebook:


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This was the AUSTRIAN “Sound of Faeries” GATHERING 2013 “The Sound of DIVERSITY”








IN AUSTRIA THIS SUMMER there were both temporary and a new permanent manifestation of faerie love. Europe is about to be home to a second faerie sanctuary. 8 years after the inauguration of Folleterre in the Vosges mountains of north eastern France, came the Kissing Awake of Wienviertel Sanctuary a new faerie home in Austria, P1170187generously opened up to us all by the landowner, El.

Ceremonials to kiss awake the new land happened 15-16 August and were followed by a faerie trek west across the country to the Sound of Music territory of Salzburg where around  60 faeries met for the first full 10 day Austrian Gathering.

Yooohooo!   Sweet faeries!  This was the
Gathering in Austria2013
“Kissing AWAKE”
the new Austrian Faerie-Sanctuary
We created faerie MAGIC in a comfortable and private Alpine hostel near an enchanted forest in the mountains of Austria. There were meadows to play in as well as forests and mountains, we came and explored this magical nature!
15-16thAugust KISSING AWAKE  the Sanctuary

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New Austrian Faerie Sanctuary awaiting you!


dearest, sweetest, loveliest, most wonderful faeries! bristers in the heart!

winter solstice today, the days are starting to get longer and the light is coming back! as we are planning and dreaming the next year and the future, the next world approaches.

you know there will be a new faerie sanctuary in austria, in the low wide lands, cosy embedded in the soft hills, fields and wine yards north of vienna, close to the former iron curtain at the border to czech republic. much smaller than folleterre though, her little sister…

a place to enjoy, to play and have fun, to recreate, a place to learn and grow, to build and shape and share, to create and be creative, to be with each other, with nature, in nature, in our nature. for that, it shall be ours!

i offer the land. mata hari announced the sanctuary last summer. fauny will inaugurate it for the faeries.

for the next year we want to invite you to come and see! and be and feel and dream on the land, to make it real faeriespace. there is a lot to do, space to be prepared for the faeries to come… for sure we can use many kind of help.

come! alone or in groups (bildet banden 😉 when you are in the area or whenever! the local faerie community that is building up slowly here will gather more often there in the next year as i hope, so we can be with you. name a date, decide for a time you wanna come!

when you want to know anything more specific just ask! let me know when you want to come! pikachu is planning on coming beginning of march, you also want to be there when the green and blooms are coming out? or in may, for beltane or after the folleterre beltane gathering? or maybe around the csd, that is on 22nd of june in vienna this year. the week before the faeries will be in the pride village on town hall square. and the sanctuary is only about an hour away from vienna (cherry time!!!). (maybe someone wants to give me a lift to the folleterre gender splendour gathering after that- oh i’d love to be there but dont know yet how and if…)

and, of course, there will be the big gathering in salzburg in august, i hope many of you will pass by before or after that one! whenever!!!

spread the news! the land is awaiting you!

i wish you a wonderful winter solstice, and a great beginning of the new year, the new world!

all faerielove, xxxxxxx el


Report from the Summer Solstice Weekend 2013:

The Radical Faeries have celebrated for the first time since its inception their solstice celebration in the Sanctuary in glorious weather and it was a special experience for all to see once again how important it is to escape from the daily routine and to Faeriy-sanctuary-5668reflect back to its true roots. At the solstice, the sun is worshiped to ensure that it gives us the desire for life, sexuality, creativity, energy, health and wishes. Some, like our friends the Film Academy, which filmed the Faerie Altar-up here, the Rurtaler and my 14 year old son was the first time in the Sanctuary and they expressed during the final common ritual bonfire their great gratitude, to be able to experience this whole thing in this wonderful nature. We all threw into fire symbolically to transform what we thought was stressful and negative to us and in everyday life, our inner and outer tensions – come to our liberation as free loving beings a little closer.

Above all, the affection, appreciation and enthusiasm of my 14-year-old son, which you certainly cannot fool, for nature and the animals around and that the loving interpersonal dealings can work here,  moved many of us deeply and caused a further transformation with me. It affirmed the recognition that the Faeriemovement is far beyond the borders of the Radical Faeries for every generation, especially for the young generation (of Faeries) of great importance and that it is worth to continue what we have begun here in Austria for the welfare of all people here and in the world, even with this Sanctuary. We all still do not really appreciate what paradise is hidden here on a small. We always know everything better, just want to be right and want impose our order or tension on everything – instead of finally LISTEN to nature, the animals and the hearts of others.

Why we notice that all that hard? — But we’re working on it and we will not give up! M.H.


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Lets look at the Earth from “ABOVE”. We see a beautiful bright little ball in the vast universe. However when looking at the earth more closely, we see that it is punctured with the bright or dark cobwebs of civilized humanity, with its electricity, roads and settlements. And we see the many holes humanity has beaten out of the planet to get as many resources as possible from her. And we accelerate this damage with our greed for goods, and the demands of a ‘progressive’ world without really realizing something.

But in the next 40 years this current form of CIVILIZATION WILL NO LONGER EXIST – because all the oil reserves will be depleted, a resource that civilization is essentially based on. This is a FACT, which everybody refuses to admit, including the media. We live cheerfully and continue exploit the earth, without any regard for our future. We are externally determined by industry, the economy, environmentally hostile political agendas aimed at gaining votes, and the rich and the media who want to make money NOW with no consequence for the World’s future. And we all fall for it! We no longer know what is REALLY IMPORTANT in life! We are no longer human to another – in every way. Ridiculing reigns in our media. Everyone survives by the judging each other. There is no real respect for each other. We do nothing to ensure the long-lasting happiness of each other. What matters is the short-lived success!

The holes in our world are not healing anymore – but more and more we ignore the warning signs around us. The signs which our very life-force, the earth itself sends to us! We do not consider the earth as a LIVING SOUL – because we ourselves have no soul anymore!
IT MUST END! Or we all perish! – For the earth is stronger! We cannot beat her. We can only destroy our human race and civilisation.

If we do not act now it will be too late. We have only two choices: we will have to fight for the last living resources, OR we will be FAIRIES – FAERIES – the protector of the earth, nature and therefore the people. If we don’t see A SOUL in everything around us both in our NEIGHBORS and in our remaining NATURE, in its APPARITIONS and the EARTH, we will all go down!
The Earth will continue to exist, and on it’s own terms. She has skillfully done so for billions of years – without us! We could change that still! BUT ONLY IF OUR CIVILIZATION Changes NOW – and not in 40 years! Because it has to change anyway. But in 40 years, the Earth will not recover from the damage we have inflicted on her. The UN has long made clear the unmistakable consequences of climate change. Yet powerful business enterprises have continued to act in the interest of profit and greed at the expense of humanity and our children – and the Earth!

But it could be all so simple:
We could on the one hand live by the values that the original inhabitants of the earth, the indigenous peoples, such as Native Americans who have always exemplified a life in harmony with nature, and on the other hand a true and peaceful  COMPASSION for their NEIGHBOURS – as the faeries have done for over 30 years.

The dream has always been with the Faeries, this togetherness, this respecting of nature and the people. This applies not just when we meet, but outside of our community – and we aim to be also able to apply this to the real world, to real life – to make the world livable and lovable!  But to make this enormous new courage and energy clear to the other people – we were far too few till now.
For anyone who has lived with the Radical Faeries, it appears somehow absurd, soulless and unnatural to live in this “civilization” out there. Most values of the so-called civilization are perceived as false pretenses.  What is praised as desirable goals in the real world is perceived by the faeries as far from a meaningful life for the human race and the environment.

Although most early Faeries would describe themselves as queer or gay, this does not mean that they could be defined as crazy or abnormal. This is their way of life – as they live together. On the contrary, for the Radical Faeries, it is modern civilization that is dominated by actual deviants, unnatural, soulless, unimaginative, inhuman prejudiced people where only sex counts, and the freedoms which democracy offers thanks be to God, to be abused by many through money and greed. The faeries would like to see this world, this civilization as a true place of the soul, the body and the mind – which it is not currently.

In truth, we Faeries have genuine compassion for others and the nature AND we LIVE THIS!’

Although it still sounds absurd – In truth, the world will have to be a fairy world in 40 years, or it will no longer exist! In truth, the world NOW must
immediately be a fairy world so that in 40 years we still can experience it as a paradise on earth.
We cannot leave the earth to industry, the economy, politics, the rich, the media, the religions, the money and the negative energy!

People need to reclaim the Earth again. We cannot leave the decision about the fate of the earth and the people to “beer tables” of the rich and corporations, but in the hearts of men – in the Heart Circles of faeries!

Will you be the first to realize this, our grandchildren and our planet will thank us! – We as faeries have not looked away as has almost the entire present civilization! We lived with our hearts!


Austria is ready for the faeries!
Austria is NOT the island of the blessed anymore, Austria is to be the island of SOULS! – which radiates POSITIVE FAERIE ENERGY!

All human beings are not only brothers and sisters – but:

DO SOMETHING! Love FINALLY! – Before we cannot do it anymore!


Only utopians can CHANGE the world!

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Pre-Christmas GATHERETTE with HEART CIRCLE in the sanctuary, dec 8-9, 2012

first time in AUSTRIAN SANCTUARY in Hadres in the Wine district,

Saturday 8, December 2012, from 12:00 pm noon – to Sunday 9, afternoon – open end

with possibility to get to know the sanctuary, to sit by the fire and sing, to stay and to visit the Christmas market in Hadres from 12:00 pm noon .

HEART CIRCLE Saturday at about 18.00 clock (and maybe on sunday too)

We look forward to seeing you soon!
Further details how to get there will be announced in Faerie newsletter to which anyone can signing up

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THE WOUNDED HEALER – My experiences from the Folleterre summer gathering 2012, by Mata Hari

Being picked up at the train station in Lure for a summer gathering at Folleterre is always very special to me. When I first visited this “crazy land” two years ago and saw the first faerie in the car, Mercedes, I thought he was the craziest punk I had ever seen. He was so eager to get very close to me that I considered us friends from the first second on. He convinced me to take my first trip to India half a year later, and then he died, which was a big shock for me. His passing inspired me to return to Folleterre to perform a tribute to him and to Gezel, who also died the same year, at the no-talent show.

 This year I also arrived the afternoon of the no-talent show – and since my performance was about the birth of the faeries, I needed a new, young, “virgin” faerie to perform with me. Fauny recommended I ask Jonny because he is so lovely, and lovely he was! When I asked him if he would like to be part of my performance, he responded so positively. An hour later, he told a lot of faeries that he hated himself, something I had never heard that from anyone before. I could not believe what I was hearing, but knew that I wanted to help him, especially through our performance. All of the faeries in the audience and I tried to give him all the love he could not give to himself. On the stage I gave him a long, intense kiss representing all the love we could give to him, and I have never seen more beauty and brightness in someone’s eyes. I told him there was no reason why he should not love himself and I could see that he was trying to hold back his tears because deep inside himself he wanted to believe that this could be true. His tears showed me that he had hope. When he promised to come to the Austria faerie gathering in August 2013, I was so happy that we all could see him again and could continue the healing process until he no longer needs our help, even if it takes the rest of his life. I could see in his eyes that he, like Mata Hari, will need faerie healing from time to time – as long as he lives.

 I know none of us is perfect and the world is not perfect and the faeries are not perfect, but if you tell the faeries what you need, what makes you angry, they will try to help you. The key is to openly express what is inside you. Be free and don’t build walls around yourself. We are not “bad” faeries! We all have our faults and injuries and wounds, even those who seem not to. If you look beneath the surface of every faerie, you can see that we have all suffered. WE ALL ARE WOUNDED HEALERS. Some are looking for a partner, some are looking for acceptance, some believe they do not have the same rights as other faeries or as their fellow human beings. No matter what you believe, give us the CHANCE TO LISTEN TO YOU so that our heart can understand you. Then you’ll see what happens, see how the energy flows toward you. Enjoy the energy. Sometimes we forget where our hearts are, but let it find its place again. If you have trouble connecting deeply with the faeries, getting beneath the surface, go to Mother Nature – she will always help you. It’s OK if you don’t feel a deep contact to every faerie. That’s life. Don’t put yourself under too much pressure in faeriespace! Let it flow and it will come – sometime.

 For me personally, the gathering was a paradise and hell at the same time. It started and ended as a paradise, but in between I suffered a lot. I saw more beauty and brightness in the eyes of some faeries than I have ever seen, but I suffered hearing hurt faeries shouting during heart-circles. At one point in the no-talent show I couldn’t breathe because I was wrapped into 15 meters of golden and purple fabric. I felt like I was trapped in a melting sauna and wanted nothing more than to unveil myself on stage.

 I recognized this feeling from hours of suffering and hellish heat in the sweat lodge –paradise and hell at the same time. I survived in the sweat lodge by digging my face deeply into mother earth, no matter what other people said and no matter what animals were in the soil. The intense heat made my real suffering in life much more intense. It led me to discover that I also should shed the negative feelings, thoughts, criticism and humiliation, the manipulation civilization hurls at me. But I also had beautiful moments imagining strolling through my first faerie-sanctuary Wolf Creek in the dark, seeing the glowing signs in the stones and feeling the eternal wish to never have to leave this eternally magical lodge.

 In the evening after the fun ballet workshop with Ballet Boy, where I jumped a lot, I decided to jump over the fire. Then it happened: I did not see where I was landing in the darkness and I felt a terrible pain in my left foot. Hours later I discovered that it was terribly swollen and bruised and I couldn’t walk. I couldn’t bear to tell anyone that “Mata Hari” was not able to dance anymore during this gathering. The world suddenly seemed so unreal to me. Was this the end of everything? Where was my faerie energy? When I woke up in the morning, my feelings were gone. I had to get out, to save myself. This beautiful, healing faerie energy flowed from one faerie to another. They wanted to carry me to the lake so I could take part in the Kobi ritual to save the lives, the spirits and the culture of this threatened natural primitive tribe. In their culture, the men sleep with the men and the women sleep with the women, and the Spanish conquerors tried to kill them because they thought they all were gay.

 Finally it was even better for me that the faeries did not summon up the energy to carry me up to the mountain, giving me a day to total relaxation, which I needed so much after the stress I had at home and at work, in addition to bringing the faerie movement to Austria this year for the first time, organizing the first faerie gathering and party in Austria and finding a new faerie sanctuary in Austria specially for the faeries in Austria and Eastern Europe – a vision I had after visiting this marvellous elswood – a faerieland near the border to Slowakia – owned by an Austrian faerie named EL, whom I met at Vienna Pride.

I loved how much fun the faeries had at this “folle” terre trying to heal me in their special way. It was so marvellous to feel this healing energy! At the closing ceremony, I was actually able to dance with a stick! I did not give up and I witnessed how some faeries who had some really angry moments during the gathering had become more gentle when they discovered that they were not alone with their pain here. Every faerie has his special problems and fears. None of us has a perfect life. We all want to be heard and loved. No faeries are better or worse than others, We all have our own experiences in faerieland and we learn from our experiences – not only from listening.

 We all share a common desire – we all want to come back to this faerieland! – our sanctuaries! – whether it is Folleterre or somewhere else. Our sanctuaries are like our home and we want to care for them as long as we are living our own faerie identity. This is our true soul and being!

 So hell is followed by paradise, and before I left this paradise sanctuary, I felt the God of the medieval spirits kissing and hugging and covering me for an hour in my room. We are a natural tribe, and the divine voice in our hearts comes alive when we let go of our thoughts and just let things happen! – let your heart flow!

 Dear friends, queer friends of Folleterre! – The circle is open – but not broken!

 We faeries strengthen and empower each other. The tears I shed because of the angry and unhappy faeries were healing tears for these faeries and the tears I shed for myself have made me stronger in my heart and for my life. I couldn’t help but smile when I looked into the faces of my faeries friends. My heart has found a way to express itself – Folleterre – that is it! Why is it so important to me? … Because of you and you and … you, Mother Earth!

 Thank you, Folleterre – you crazy Goddess of love! HAPPY TEARS! Happy about all Jonny’s tears! Fearieday … all my trouble seem so far away …

 XXX Mata Hari
Here are the lyrics from the song from my performance of “the birth of the faeries”



 Faerieday, all my troubles seem so far away
All my friends are here with me to stay
Oh, I believe in Faerieday

Suddenly I’m more the man I want to be
There’s an angel flying over me
Oh, Faerieland so lovely

 Why I have to go
I don’t know, I am here to stay
I say I need you
Now I long for Faerieday

Faerieday love is such an easy game to play
Now I have a space to be my way
Oh, I believe in Faerieday

 Why we have to go
I don’t know, we ‚re here to stay
I say I need you
Now I long for Faerieday

 Faerieday love is such an easy game to play
Now I have a place to be my way
Oh, I believe in Faerieday


 (Music: Beatles, Lyrics: Mata Hari)


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